Today was the day I came out of the cancer closet at work. A handful of people have known about my upcoming treatment but most people weren't yet aware. Today at the Monday huddle I let everyone know that I would be off for six weeks starting on Monday. Talk about an awkward conversation. Telling a roomful of people "Hey, I have breast cancer! See you later!" kind of takes the prize for difficult announcements.
Of course that was only the beginning. People came by to express their surprise (I'm still shocked too) and ask if they could do anything. (Bless their kindness. I work with such good people.) And there are a few people I'll still have to tell one-on-one.
In the end, what else is there to say. I have cancer. I still can't really believe it but there it is. There is nothing that will change the fact I am going to lose both my breasts. Every day I wake up is one less day I have with them. One less day of being my old self, before I have to become my new self.
Of course that was only the beginning. People came by to express their surprise (I'm still shocked too) and ask if they could do anything. (Bless their kindness. I work with such good people.) And there are a few people I'll still have to tell one-on-one.
In the end, what else is there to say. I have cancer. I still can't really believe it but there it is. There is nothing that will change the fact I am going to lose both my breasts. Every day I wake up is one less day I have with them. One less day of being my old self, before I have to become my new self.